2010.01.22 :: free day :: 8:45pm :: f l y ::

comfort and beauty combined

forest enshrined

gifted rain

living rain

falling rain

open my wings

and fly

2010.01.18 :: moon day :: 12:39pm :: k i n g ::

"The ultimate weakness of violence is that it is a descending spiral, begetting the very thing it seeks to destroy. Instead of diminishing evil, it multiplies it.

Through violence you may murder the liar, but you cannot murder the lie, nor establish the truth.

Through violence you may murder the hater, but you do not murder hate. In fact, violence merely increases hate. So it goes. ...

Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars.

Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that.

Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that."

-- Martin Luther King, Jr.

2010.01.15 :: free day :: 9:54pm :: w e a r e ::

we are light, energy, love.

everything is ultimately made of one light *

this light has a spectrum of what i think of as 'density'.

as humans, we are a dense spectrum of energy that recognizes itself and our surroundings.

ideally, we do this continuously, but sometimes we are more awake than others.

we are able to 'know' ourselves, able to recreate ourselves, and able to alter our environment.

we occupy most of our time this way.

obviously.

2010.01.09 :: saturn day :: 8:48pm :: t a o ::

When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

When I let go of what I have, I receive what I need.

By yielding I endure.

When I give of myself I become more.

When I feel most destroyed I am about to grow.

When I desire nothing a great deal comes to me.

- - Tao Te Ching

2009.12.21 :: moon day :: 1:36am :: h e r e

baby. mother. boy. me. we. this. net. space. place. field. real. open. in. life. eye. star. moon. sun. one.

love.

l i f e

2009.12.15 :: tuesday :: 12:55am ::

my fellow family ::

the birth of my first child happened yesterday at 4:40 am, at home, in our bedroom, quickly, and smoothly, with the aid of an extremely wise and loving midwife.

it's a girl! ^_^ her name is 'adresa joy', 'adresa' being the first song i ever wrote, a love song for my very first childhood love, and 'joy' being hannah's middle name, her spirit and vitality.

this event was completely thrilling, exciting, intense, and fun! :)

our six year old, nathan, is completely overjoyed, am i.

hannah is healthy, the baby is beautiful, and we are completely blessed.

on the flip side of this coin, today, my dearest grandmother died.

her name was 'joyce' and she was the most loving force in my life.

my grandmother gave, then gave some more, throughout her time here.

at one point, my grandmother had 14 members of our family living under her roof, sheltering us, caring for her huge family, of which i am one.

i feel such a deep love for her, for her life, and for her caring.

the bottom line is, i am stunned.

frozen.

in a kind of wide-eyed overwhelm that is utterly profound....

beyond

w o r d s .

been crying all night.

i love you.

i love you all.

2009.11.18 :: wednesday :: 2:59am :: r e l a x ::

asking the stars again....

what do you have to say to me?

"relax"

"everything is ok."

some sips of hot kava later....

i know this must be true.

and so...

i do.

2009.10.26 :: moon day :: 3:58am :: t h o u g h t s

for some odd reason, i've been going through a lot of internal struggle this year.

looking at my life right now, it seems absolutely absurd that i should.

i live with a totally wonderful woman, carrying my baby nearly born, and a beautifully brilliant six year old boy who i am fathering. we live in a lovely hawaiian home just down the road from stunning beaches with a vast jungle in our backyard. i have access to advanced equipment to work with all day in support of the most inspiring project imaginable. i have a highly successful music career, and the endless loving support of so many friends and family...

so, in light of all this, what do i possibly have to despair?

can i be so spoiled?

all i can think is, i must be addicted to conflict.

if everything is ideal in my immediate external life, then i must be creating some inner drama to compensate, simply out of some kind of habit.

tonight, all i can say is, i'm sorry.

i'm sorry to everyone, but mostly to myself, for refusing to completely embrace and fully appreciate these gifts that i am immersed in.

this has been an ongoing lesson for me, the complications of success, the difficulty of accepting achievement.

this reminds me of a quote from the 'tao te ching' ::

"People usually fail when they are on the verge of success.

So give as much care to the end as to the beginning;

Then there will be no failure."

thank you world.

thank you life.

thank you for all that is.

thank you for all that we are.

2009.09.12 :: saturday :: 9:39pm :: arise :: confront :: embrace

today was my first impromptu jujutsu lesson on the beach.

after my usual morning ocean meditations / exercises and warm ups, i broke into some wing chun kung fu forms.

a large drunken local called me over to him, and without warning, proceeded to pounce on me for a match.

must say that i was able to hold this guy off for quite a while, but he eventually subdued me with his massive weight and size, grinding my head into the sand.

with my mouth in the beach, i told this big fellow that i was 'tapping out'.

he honored my submission and released me, scolding me for training on the public beach. said it was 'disrespectful to him'.

perhaps it is...

at any rate, i'll certainly be a bit more careful where and when i train..

it's such a blessing to have open space to release everything.

our new home is giving us much of this...

great love to all.

it's relatively inexpensive and is certainly better than using a bunch of chemicals.

:: ' e l l o ! ! _

2009.08.02 :: sun day :: 9:15pm :: focus :: breathe :: do

light
shining
out

shooting
warmth
around

floating
flowing
power

fire
flower

glowing crystal sphere

growing vivid star

sun ray
vibration

solar stream
radiation

bright light beam
station

baby milky way
creation

time spent with you
is healing me

we're all one
we're all free

we've opened up
ourselves

get to work.

:: r e p l y _

2009.06.03 :: wednesday :: 6:16pm :: work :: overcome :: initiate

well, lots of time and events have passed since my last journal entry.

very much enjoying living in hawaii again, with my new family.

hannah and i have a baby on the way! :)

should be due for birth around the new year.

we're getting married very soon. hope to share a few photos and videos with everyone.

life keeps going, this wild world keeps turning, and experiences keep on flowing...

cheers all...

when things seem overwhelming, clear your mind and look at the most immediate tasks at hand.

keep working with the smallest things.

everything large will eventually get sorted out.

:: r e p l y _

2009.04.18 :: saturday :: 10:15pm :: live :: clarify :: prepare

am just about ready to end my european trip and head back to hawaii.

very much looking forward to some purifying crystal blue waters.

planning on recording another vavmind audio entry before i go.

much love to you.

very important information and education there.

:: r e p l y _

2009.04.04 :: saturday :: 9:47am :: wake :: focus :: do

some advice i just wrote for a friend ::

there's a saying that goes something like this ::

'it takes a strong person to overcome failure, but an even stronger person to overcome success.'

yes indeed... right as our dreams are finally coming true, a whole new dimension of conflict will present itself, often more subtle and sophisticated than the last.

have seen this time and time again...

the thing is, problems are addictions.

we cling to them, strive to solve them, and spend lots of energy on them.

yet when we win, those problems disappear, and at this point, we can feel at a loss with what to do with ourselves, what to focus on, and what our next challenge is.

if we're not careful, this confusion can lead to depression and self destruction.

here's my advice ::

relax. enjoy the simple things of life. treat yourself and those you love to small gifts like massage, hot baths, gentle music, good meals.

expand your awareness to your new situation and surroundings. let go of the past and focus on your current reality.

identify your new challenges, new goals, and begin working to achieve them.

~

i can't tell you how much i understand this process. been through it so many times, it feels like a blur.

depression and apathy still catch me, often when i get lost in my memories.

memories can be dangerous to dwell upon.

this is one reason why i emphasize meditation so much...

would be happy to talk about food more, but diet is really just a byproduct of mental states.

you know what you want and need.

go for it!

today i simply had a tall glass of filtered water with a bit of fresh lemon juice and agave syrup for sweetness.

very nice and helpful to clean out the system first thing in the morning.

:: r e p l y _

2009.04.03 :: friday :: 3:07pm :: dance :: feel :: introspect

touching this pencil to this paper again
(and fingers to keyboard just for you.)

strutting my heart visible
if there was some answer in this dismal town

perhaps it's this love

ripped from some square crate
pressed to steel grinding machines
shattered into small bite size bits
and released

into a i r

free at last . . !!!

no no
i just can't take it
don't know how anyone can

clock driven
slave system
sucking our tits dry

perhaps government wants to kill us
or maybe just milk us

on and on and on

death is better than this
life is nothing but risk

so resolved
i run
over this cliff

flying into a sea

of opportunity

f r e e !

don't betray your heart for the 'benefit' of others.

you know what you want. you know who you are.

be it. do it.

:: r e p l y _

2009.03.15 :: sunday :: 3:02pm :: purify :: rest :: contemplate

have been working hard lately to finish the next 'vavrek solo' album release, titled 'v3'.

if you like, you may download the first alpha v3 demo.

would appreciate any feedback!

newer versions are on the way...

you can buy a rocket stove for very cheap these days....

all around, this is an excellent technology to use and understand...

looking forward to making a video soon about how to make these portable ones.

:: r e p l y _

2009.03.01 :: sunday :: 4:12pm :: maintain :: ignite :: e n l i g h t *

with this whole chemtrail issue, my experience is that it largely depends where you are located.

i've experienced various degrees of trails in the sky depending upon where i am.

in northern california, it was blatant and publicly announced spraying of the sky for 'mosquito control'.

if you pay attention, you will notice a strong difference between 'contrails' and 'chemtrails'.

contrails eventually disappear, usually rather quickly.

chemtrails last, diffuse, spread, and often will spawn a completely cloudy sky.

many countries, such as china, are openly public about their 'weather modification' programs.

here in the united kingdom, the skies are quite often filled with pervasive, lasting trails. it's amazingly intense how much crap there is in the sky at times above and around london.

what is being discharged is certainly not just 'water vapor'. it acts quite differently... creating a diffused haze of lasting fog across the sky...

one thing i've been discussing lately is that this chemtrail activity is actually probably more of a water quality concern than even as much of an air quality one.

after heavy metals are hosed into the air, i would guess that they fall somewhat quickly, or eventually get washed down with rain, filling up and polluting the ground and tap water supplies.

my most recent 'near death' experience with detoxification happened right after i began filtering my water for chemical and heavy metal pollutants.

am feeling much sharper and clearer now as a result of the filtration.

am also actively growing and accumulating more indoor plants.

my friends...

we must grow our own air.

plants are masters of this.

local news station confirms barium in chemtrails

aerosol crimes

much of britain was exposed to bacteria sprayed in secret trials

the best line is of this article is the last one ::"Asked whether such tests are still being carried out, she said: 'It is not our policy to discuss ongoing research.'"

:: r e p l y _

2009.02.22 :: sunday :: 8:57pm :: see :: feel :: achieve

after a number of lifestyle improvements, i am starting to feel better now...

this hollywood / european tour certainly has been taxing on my health.

am very much looking forward to returning to hawaii soon.

in the meantime, am doing what i can to continue promoting local sustainability.

rocket stoves are really beginning to take off here in england.

let's thrive, wherever we are...

blend some with coconut oil for a soothing and scented body rub.

mix some up in a spray bottle with alcohol and water for a natural air freshener.

lavender and cinnamon oils are my current favorites.

:: r e p l y _

2009.02.02 :: monday :: 1:13pm :: purify :: detoxify :: renew

recently installed fluoride / heavy metal water filters and experienced most intense detox of my life...

ended up laying in bed for the last couple of days with every cell in my body screaming out... had nasty headaches with 'electric flashes'... felt dizzy whenever i stood up...

still spitting out lots of garbage, but am feeling much better now.

wow.

what the hell is in the water !?!?!?

be your fucking self !!!

get on with it !!!

:: r e p l y _

2009.01.21 :: wednesday :: 11:46pm :: o

e y e

l o v e

Y O U *

thank you for becoming _

chow down!

:: r e p l y _

2009.01.14 :: wednesday :: 11:08am :: train :: commit :: o p e n

it's so wonderful to have a functioning recording system again.

soon, i will be posting a full report for you on what equipment and software i am using...

feels like a whole bunch of clarity is coming my way...

am manifesting this ~

:: r e p l y _

2008.12.25 :: thursday :: 6:28am :: silence :: collect :: g i v e

happy solstice everyone !!!

greetings from jolly 'ol england !!! :)

as a small gift, eye have just added photos of friends and family to my gallery.

been writing new songs, which you are likely to hear quite soon, as eye have just managed to get my recording system up and running very well...

so, brand new demos of the next tryad album will be available soon!

much love to us all ~ ♥

or should eye say . . .

y o u ~ n i v e r s e _

;)

:: r e p l y _

2008.11.22 :: saturday :: 3:00pm :: meditate :: gather :: g r o w

many wonderful things have been happening for us lately...

first of all, tryad is performing its first official live concert on the 26th of november in paris!

hosted by jamendo.com, this free concert is being held at the glaz'art gallery and begins around 7pm.

we're the opening act, so if you are in paris on wednesday, come early to see us!

you can watch a video of our first practice show.

we were recently interviewed on national french television by lci.

we've also just landed an article in a french magazine known as 'volume'.

a full pdf and translation of this article will be available soon...

a new vavrek track featuring ema on vocals has recently appeared online.

this new album, titled 'v3', is nearly mastered and will be online for free download soon.

these days, we're recording with ioeo for the third tryad album, known as 'the tree'.

here is an early mp3 sample.

thanks to everyone for your wonderful support!

would love to hear from you...

long live free music!

~

:: r e p l y _

2008.11.11 :: tuesday :: 3:18am :: communicate :: explore :: g i v e

am working on setting up a new photo gallery.

my third 'solo' album is nearly ready for release.

quite a collaboration really...

am currently living in england and blessed with a new live acoustic tryad band.

our first major concert is happening in paris on the 26th of this month!

simply wonderful ~

many thanks to my mother and father for covering this months web hosting costs!

we are a very small piece
of a very big place.

:: r e p l y _

2008.10.29 :: wednesday :: 10:47pm :: sleep :: play :: d r e a m

a breath
a death

a focus of love

a night
a life

a feeling of o n e

if you were my words
both spoken and heard

my head would spin in circles
my head would spin in circles

dream no more
oh my sleepy one
wake in this world
stand in this sun

this wheel is in motion
this game is in spin
our eyes are this ocean

energy

v i s i o n !

we love life
we live life
we give life

f r e e !

friendly eyes
open minds
flying high

w e !

all for play
all for play

every day
every day

co-create!
co-create!

even death
is a blessing

:: r e p l y _

2008.09.24 :: wednesday :: 1:56pm :: rise :: reach :: broadcast

new entry ::

(mp3 | ogg)))  vavmind 005

featured music ::

my personal favorite is ardour, which works well with the ubuntu studio gnu/linux os.

other good recording options are rezound and rosegarden.

all free as in freedom.

:: r e p l y _

2008.09.21 :: sunday :: 11:11pm :: rest :: play :: g e e k o u t * *

pierce distance
annihilate stray senses
p l a y i n g

( DISCONNECTION_ )

OK

this is the central subject
this is your ultimate substance
this is a living mission
fulfilling itself

electronic pixel
transport mediums
circuit conduits
busy broadcasting

you

knock walls down

go on

you
blazing beautiful being

keep knocking them down_

/ / /

major brands include british berkefeld (doulton) and the american made aqua rain.

there is also a cool tiny travel model available known as the doulton gss mini.

the aqua rain system comes with marathon filters. these filters have very small pores which enhances microbial elimination, as well as a detoxifying carbon core.

the 'berkey' models come with chemically absorbant black filters, while the 'british berkefeld' use super sterasyl ceramic filters.

berkey pf-2 filters go further to absorb fluoride and arsenic from water.

all good stuff to learn and use.

why buy bottled water?

filter your own!

:: r e p l y _

2008.09.15 :: monday :: 8:32pm :: hurt :: contemplate :: overcome

sometimes

humanity
hardly
makes any
sense to me
dirty cities
dry streets
dead concrete
carnivores eating
bleeding
red meat
caustic toxic
chemical air
breathe
deep

tragic travesty trash

factory farm living

system slaves
what does it take
to break

out -

bottom line ::

it is not this 'wicked world' at all . . .

if anything is a challenge
it is simply my own
internal state *

( * infinite energy everywhere )

SIMPLIFY BREATHE RELAX BE FREE_

vav please ::

soften your view
tune to blur

bodies are clouds
shapes in spaces
people form crowds
flowing through places

what am i ?

what am i ?

n o t i c e

o

if something bothers you

it's most likely

only you.

:: r e p l y _

2008.09.09 :: tuesday :: 9:41am :: dream :: channel :: c r y

in her bedroom
mirror hung the moon
as she gazed deep into her face

in her young mind
his starry eyes shined
as she dressed in white ancient lace

she knows
it's time to go
to find her true love

oh, dear
please hurry on
you can't stay long
here

in the autumn
an open coffin
a dry leaf on her silver head

slowly lowered down
sinking under ground
with the silently sleeping dead

she knows
it's time to go
to find her true love

oh, dear
let's hurry on
we can't stay long
here

visit them. sing for them. love them...

on their way out.

:: r e p l y _

2008.09.01 :: monday :: 1:42am :: sleep :: awaken :: l i v e

a i r
flows into exposed spaces
between transparent bones
right through souls
revealed

e n e r g y
falls from blazing skies
rises within rocky soils
extending in every area
endlessly

tears
rise into eyes
feeling this freedom

cries
burst from smiles
knowing this love

delight
never dreamed of

insight

*

where are you?

look within you.

what are you?

:: r e p l y _

2008.08.27 :: wednesday :: 9:11pm :: gather :: love :: t r a n s m i t

here's a list of health tips ::

1) eat seaweed - seaweed is the most potent detoxifying food known. it binds with heavy metals and pulls them safely out of the body. don't over do it! they are strong...

2) eat raw garlic - raw garlic is one of the most efficient immune boosters. it must be eaten raw (with other foods to make it bearable) and chewed to properly get it into the blood stream. raw garlic knocks out any kind of bacterial / microbial infection quite quickly.

3) eat raw greens - dark leafy greens like kale and collards are loaded with antioxidants, the stuff that prevents and reverses cancer. full of minerals and vitamins, these should be a dietary staple. raw smoothies made with bananas, fruits, and raw greens are fantastic for breakfast. massage them with a bit of celtic sea salt and add them to salads!

4) eat mostly raw & organic foods - foods in their most natural state are the best all around for health. much less likely to be genetically modified, irradiated, covered in pesticides, or full of petroleum based fertilizers. much higher in all nutrients. soak / sprout all grains, beans, nuts, and seeds...

5) go vegan / vegetarian - reduce / eliminate animal foods from your diet. meat and dairy are much higher in toxins than plant-based foods, they speed the aging process, and unless they are sustainably raised, are more environmentally destructive. eating animal foods also increases the possiblity of food poisoning.

6) eliminate refined sugar - eat fresh fruits instead of cane sugar / corn syrup based sweets! refined sugar greatly damages the immune system and teeth. more healthy alternatives to refined sugar include agave or maple syrup. for a sweet kick, whole fruit, dates, or berries are best.

7) filter your water - use filtered / distilled water for cooking, drinking, and washing vegetables. too much distilled water use is commonly thought to be harmful, but highly detoxifying in limited amounts. check out british berkefeld gravity fed filters...

8) drink kombucha - intensely healthy tonic of fermented tea loaded with beneficial bacteria such as lactobacilli. excellent for digestion, immunity, and detoxification. other great choices include beet kvas, sauerkraut, miso, or kimchi. get into fermenting at home!

9) exercise - martial arts, yoga, hiking, dancing, hot sex :) ... anything that's low impact that can get your heart beating and sweat rolling will keep toxins moving through. boosts immunity and overall well being.

10) meditate - give healing inner attention to all organs and cells. reduce stress. focus on the breath and on your feelings. go deeper. it's best to do a little bit on a regular basis than a lot once in a while.

11) sunbathe - particularly naked sunbathing, increases immunity, boosts hormone levels, and prevents cancer. reduce oil consumption while sunbathing and completely eliminate hydrogenated oil. in moderate amounts and in combination with a healthy diet, sunbathing is extremely healing, tonifying, and uplifting.

12) take cold showers - known by natives as very purifying, cold showers cause the pores to squeeze shut, thus expelling toxins. tones and tightens the figure. cold showers causes one to shower less and pull less toxins in from tap water. install a shower filter!

13) use umeboshi - a pickled japanese plum, renowned for it's medicinal qualities. a blood purifier, digestive alkalizer, and effective headache remedy.

14) buy / grow houseplants - particularly palms, indoor plants detoxify the air and raise oxygen levels. if you live in a city, this is particularly important. create your own mini-paradise!

15) keep windows open at night - helps clear indoor air-borne toxins and bring in negative ions (energy). especially important in rooms with electronic / electrical equipment which creates positively charged air. breathe fresh air all night!

16) use natural body products / or none - soap and chemicals can disrupt the natural bacterial / oil balance of the skin and hair. try eliminating their use, or using a natural alternative.

17) fall in love - affection, romance, and passion are extreme immune boosters. live in bliss! love!

18) sing - release your feelings in song! helps overcome any obstacle.

19) communicate - speak your truth to others. be honest with yourself and everyone. be courageous, open, and free.

20) give - share what you can. release old items that are of no use. build networks of support. walk in compassion.

~

do you have any thoughts or additions to this list?

the best things come to those who wait....

endure!

:: r e p l y _

2008.08.17 :: sunday :: 10:19pm :: sing :: dance :: t h r i v e

die and begin again

tear me up with tongues of tortured tales
your heart cries out to be heard

life may be hard
but there's someone here to hold you

leave your window open to a western wind

die and begin again
there's no one
there's no thing here
but you

sparks of burning spots showering vacant lots
flashing flying flares tearing through thin air

if satan ate my soul
swallowed me whole

my dream would stil persist
to drink your perfumed lips

die and begin again
there's no one
there's no thing here
but you

:: r e p l y _

2008.06.20 :: friday :: 9:56pm :: blaze :: stand :: charge

things are in major transition here at the resonance project.

we're scaling down, becoming mobile, while continuing development of very critical energy research.

more than ever, we need your support!

please consider buying a dvd set or donating.

~

in addition, 'listen' cds are now on sale!

for a signed copy, please donate $20 or more.

much love to all! ^_^

development of the third tryad album is well underway...

it's a great, free, open source program that can connect to almost any im account.

my msn contact is 'vavrek@vavrek.com'.

feel free to chat with me sometime. :)

:: r e p l y _

2008.05.26 :: monday :: 6:05pm :: play :: watch :: develop

aside from my laptop hard drive crashing, things here are going really well...

been having wild fun with the resonance project peeps, playing in the oceans, singing acoustic, and enjoying great food.

will hopefully have a new hard drive soon and resume recording.

good thing eye backed everything up right before the drive died.

another piece of hardware bites the dust!

so be it.

make multiple copies of your valuable data!

do it now! do it regularly!

:: r e p l y _

2008.05.10 :: saturday :: 9:41pm :: create :: transcend :: evolve

wonderful day here!

enjoyed a good amount of ocean swimming and sunbathing.

burned the bottoms of my feet while running barefoot on top of some very hot asphalt and pele.

came home and worked with emma on this demo.

we've been getting along well.

finding our friendship.

take time to relax.

:: r e p l y _

2008.05.09 :: friday :: 10:19pm :: live :: love :: grow

spent some nice alone time at the beach today.

floating

in crystal blue

under a radiant sun

heals all ....

emma is doing better.

we just shared a decent conversation.

eye am

feeling

f r e e ~

the greatest school on earth . . .

is inside your heart.

:: r e p l y _

2008.05.02 :: friday :: 10:49am :: awaken :: connect :: dream

feels like things are coming together.

a lot of hard work is beginning to manifest results.

in this mixed up, crazy world, it takes so much effort to create clarity.

even to master one's own habits is such a difficult undertaking.

collective global transformation begins here and now . . .

with you and me.

what we perceive with our senses is merely the smallest slice of reality.

so much more is happening....

:: r e p l y _

2008.04.23 :: wednesday :: 9:01pm :: inhale :: release :: complete

had a nice calm day today.

took a solo trip to the shore, swam in the sunny blue, and rested in white sand.

emma and eye are starting to get along again.

we're both taking better care of ourselves.

sometimes in life . . . .

it's really helps to wipe the slate clean.

identify basic needs.

be prepared.

:: r e p l y _

2008.04.22 :: tuesday :: 7:45pm :: endure :: allow :: transform

emma and eye are working through a lot right now.

have declared myself single.

there's just been too much struggle lately.

it's time for change.

it's time for healing...

~ midnight oil :: sometimes

:: r e p l y _

2008.04.20 :: sunday :: 10:23pm :: release :: rest :: enjoy

love and gratitude

take me now

show this world

beautiful sound

share your ways

sing all praise

give our hearts

ground to start

~

if we can keep our immediate surroundings clean, clear, and well structured . . .

we can achieve amazing things.

:: r e p l y _

2008.04.13 :: sunday :: 5:03pm :: relax :: sing :: smile

finally breaking thr o o o o ... :)

emma and eye are working out our differences, nassim and eye are closer than ever, and the skies here are beginning to clear.

am blasting diesel and dust right now, which feels quite appropriate.

* sigh *

yes friends ...

everything changes.

:)

to gain peace, we must surrender.

:: r e p l y _

2008.04.12 :: saturday :: 1:21pm :: breathe :: accept :: sustain

been going absolutely crazy lately.

am not getting along well with emma, just had a big verbal blowout with nassim (which we have since resolved), and the volcano here in hawaii that we're living on just erupted !!

the sky is filled with grey ash, which is causing lots of rain.

all of this, combined with our friend getting into an accident recently...

feels so overwhelming...

am currently fighting off feelings of depression, finding ways to accept my present situation and move forward.

you know...

sometimes . . .

things just go -

B O O M !

cry, cry, cry.....

:: r e p l y _

2008.04.06 :: sunday :: 9:10pm :: hang on :: focus :: give

a close friend of ours was just hit while riding a motorcycle.

he's at home with us now and we're helping him heal.

moments like these always illuminate what a gift life is.

little problems

evaporate

into the love light

of death

if you ride one, be sure to wear a strong helmet!.

on another note, check out the solar and heliospheric observatory homepage.

neat stuff, to watch our sun's weather...

:: r e p l y _

2008.02.19 :: tuesday :: 9:28pm :: breathe :: imagine :: feel

working really hard lately with the resonance project.

been singing a lot too, quite a few amazing gatherings these days.

am sharing lots of time with beautifully inspired souls.

looking forward to grounding a bit more, getting in a position to record some new tracks.

am so totally blessed and grateful for our current situation.

much love to us all.

vlc is free, open source, and able to run on practically any operating system.

often, when other video players refuse to handle a particular format, vlc will succeed.

it rocks.

:: r e p l y _

2008.02.03 :: sunday :: 2:02pm :: connect :: achieve :: focus

recently redesigned the resonance project website.

working constantly lately, setting up wireless points, managing networks, experimenting with state of the art technology.

life is good. my work is addictive fun. this place is beautiful and amazing.

doing extremely well...

wireless greetings from this d O M e .

• the linux documentation project :: many many vital infos


• speakeasy speed test :: great site for testing the speed of your net connection


• distrowatch.com :: useful for locating the most popular and fresh gnu/linux distros


• afterdawn.com :: brilliant hacker forum

:: r e p l y _

2008.01.08 :: wednesday :: 10:51pm :: shine :: flourish :: appreciate

just experienced my second day working for the resonance project.

this is by far the best job eye have ever had, working with some of the most amazing people eye have ever met, doing the most advanced and interesting things imaginable.

simply too much to explain right now...

eye am in total bliss!

on a more sad note, the young girls that we were looking at adopting have been returned to their mother, at her request.

this has been especially difficult for emma, who bonded quite strongly with them.

we're both rapidly moving on, taking ourselves to a new level of being.

all in all, everything is going extremely well for us right now.

we've found our sangha, our tribe, and in this process, our spirit.

in addition, the second tryad album has just hit number one in popularity on jamendo!

what an absolute blessing...

it's the only way to evolve.

:: r e p l y _

2008.01.02 :: wednesday :: 10:25pm :: celebrate :: connect :: l o v e !

wonderful news!

first of all, my family has come through with flying colors, supporting us fully at this critical moment.

thanks to dad, mom, and grandmom, we now have a home!

we love and thank you so much!!!

second, eye have just been hired as a network administrator for the resonance project!

this is a dream come true, to use my technical skills to support innovative scientists working with fundamental physics.

wow.

a very happy and illuminating 2 0 0 8 to all!

:: r e p l y _

2007.12.30 :: sunday :: 12:07pm :: enjoy :: hope :: ask

we have just found a beautiful rental home here in hawaii!

the girls really love this place and desperately need more stability.

if you can, please help us!

just been hired by an inspiring spirit, an owner of a local landscaping business.

computer jobs are in high demand on this island.

just a matter of time, and we will be settled, on our feet, then flying!

recording equipment is being sent (thanks mom!!!), so vocal recording of the new tryad album will begin again soon.

for this album, we have landed a talented producer from france, realaze!

very exciting!

it's the best frying oil (beyond even olive oil), is great raw, and works wonderfully on skin and hair.

coconut oil is also incredible for massage.

get some and enjoy!

:: r e p l y _

2007.12.25 :: tuesday :: 12:55pm :: guard :: provide :: give

happy holy (helios == sun) days!

F R O G L A N D ! has just been updated with chapter 02!

this eye land of hawaii is quite enjoyable overall.

friends abound lately.

we're helping eachother along this way.

girls are making pies today. :)

"Much Love and Light to All!"

-- The Frogs

makes life more fun.

:: r e p l y _

2007.12.12 :: wednesday :: 10:31pm :: embrace :: accept :: visualize

been an insane, wonderful, horrible, beautiful few weeks.

first, ema and eye have just assumed guardianship of two young girls, aged three and six!

what an incredible gift and responsibility!

suddenly, we're a family, and eye am a father!

taking in these girls instantly created controversy with our former position, so we were forced to leave. been hard on every level, physically, emotionally, and financially...

at this time, we need your support more than ever.

please donate!

of course, we know we're doing the right thing. :)

actually, these children have chosen us.

you know, hawaii is a rugged, wild place to live. feels like we're just getting the hang of things.

harvested some wild bananas and citrus today. when life hands you lemons, make lemonade with raw honey! ^_^

in other news...

jamendo was just recently mentioned in newsweek by professor lawrence lessig, a great moment for all!

seems that the 'mainstream media' is looking more and more our way...

excitment abounds.

my new book, frogland, is coming along quite well.

we've just met some wonderful new friends, a kind and spirited family.

ema and eye are dreaming of travelling europe.

anyone fancy a visit?

we will bring my guitar! :)

someday, if we treat them well, they will care for us in return.

:: r e p l y _

2007.11.21 :: wednesday :: 9:39pm :: w o w :: thanks :: giving

f r o g l a n d !

:: r e p l y _

2007.11.10 :: saturday :: 6:59pm :: ascend :: achieve :: work

the rain!

(mp3 | ogg)))  vavmind 004

featured music ::

rest well.

:: r e p l y _

2007.10.27 :: saturday :: 7:56pm :: rest :: rise :: settle in

got my first coconut tree climbing lesson today.

been sleeping a lot this weekend, recovering from the consumption of a bunch of gloriously potent ganga food that was gifted to me.

had a hard time walking yesterday . . . just a touch too much, eh? ^_^

coconut oil is working pretty well in keeping mosquitos off my skin.

sprouted coconuts are the ones that contain the oil.

will have to find more soon.

we can do anything we want, provided that we work within the balance of our tolerance.

sometimes pushing the limits is useful.

many times not. :)

:: r e p l y _

2007.10.24 :: wednesday :: 6:36pm :: inhale :: focus :: e x p o s e

aloha from a dark, wet jungle filled with charmingly chirping frogs.

check out where eye am . . .

so many experiences are transpiring, each as beautiful as the most perfect poem, touching moments of life and joy.

fact is, we have truly found a paradise.

there's simply too much to describe.

we're regaining broadcasting ability and will be able to begin sharing with everyone in growing abundance.

life can be simply wonderful

heaven is indeed found on earth.

all the time.

hugs make the best greetings.

go for it. :)

:: r e p l y _

2007.10.16 :: tuesday :: 12:30pm :: deepen :: grow :: o p e n

yesterday, eye caught two wild ocean fish using a fishing pole made from the center of a large dry palm leaf. ate some fish raw, then cooked the rest using a small rocket stove.

this morning, woke up at dawn, meditated, stretched out on the beach, then got fairly scraped up while climbing a coconut tree for a cleansing drink of coconut water mixed with fresh lime juice from foreged local limes.

you know...

put the lime in the coconut!

just read in my mini sas survival guide that it's easier to climb coconut trees, or any narrow tree, if you tie a strip of cloth between your feet to grip the trunk as you ascend. will have to give this a shot soon. have got a nice stash of coconuts now to last me awhile.

after over two wonderful weeks of solid beach camping, we're back in 'civilization' for a bit, staying with various friends. tonight it's a lovely tropical home filled with buddhas and fine art.

looking forward to more vocal recording soon. will need to have our equipment sent from the mainland. might try a demo or two with my portable headset mic.

daniel laufer has been whipping up some amazing music for us to work with.

which path we choose is largely our decision.

we may not control the waves, but we can sure learn to surf.

:: r e p l y _

2007.10.11 :: thursday :: 9:53pm :: journey :: explore :: p l u g i n

so far, we have been able to personally harvest and enjoy the following local foods ::

bananas, avocados, papayas, wild ocean fish, macadamia nuts, dates, limes, coconuts, guavas, and star fruits...

the local farmer's markets supply even a wider variety of wonderful foods, such as mangos, cucumbers, carrots, greens, rambutans, and dragon fruits, all locally grown.

would be very hard to starve in hawaii.

still eating primarily raw food.

never felt better.

swimming is quite an excellent, full-body, low-impact exercise.

avoid swimming in chlorinated or polluted water.

clean oceans and lakes are splendid places to swim.

:: r e p l y _

2007.10.06 :: saturday :: 11:35am :: arise :: meditate :: f l o a t

this morning, eye woke early, meditated on the beach, and noticed fins out in the ocean distance.

swam out and spent indescribable time swimming with a large pod of dozens of dolphins.

feeling deeply touched by these beautiful and friendly beings.

an experience of a lifetime....

:: r e p l y _

2007.10.05 :: friday :: 4:30pm :: swim :: collect :: m a n i f e s t

hawaii is stunning.

eye have never lived in a more remote location in my life.

after a couple of rainy gloomy days on the east side of the island, eye have plunged into the full glory of ocean beauty and warm sun in the west.

wow.

been camping on an awesome beach, swimming, snorkeling, viewing some of the most amazing fish, and singing around a campfire.

tune in.

:: r e p l y _

2007.09.28 :: friday :: 8:37pm :: adventure :: trust :: enjoy

greetings from the hawaii islands!

wow, this place is so far away . . .

just getting settled. will be hitting the beach soon.

the huge local avocados and bananas are quite a delight.

will be reporting my experiences regularly.

we are dynamic creatures made of change.

flow.

:: r e p l y _

2007.09.26 :: wednesday :: 11:13am :: move :: abandon :: embrace

leaving to hawaii today.

aloha! ^_^

much love to all.

enjoy this moment.

it's all we have...

:: r e p l y _

2007.09.23 :: sunday :: 9:28pm :: see :: release :: soar

friends...

very amazing discoveries for me in the food realm lately...

as you probably know, been thriving for this past month on an entirely raw diet.

many days, have been eating little more than some raw leafy greens and a couple fruits.

what's stunning is how well eye feel on this very simple diet.

so much energy, vitality on every level...

been lifting weights, doing yoga, kung fu forms, actually been much more physically active than ever.

here are some conclusions ::

we can live for very long periods of time, perhaps indefinitely, on a very simple diet of raw leafy greens, fruits, vegetables, and soaked / sprouted seeds and nuts.

as mentioned earlier, this food is extremely detoxing. my first couple days were intense, along with a couple weeks of mucus in the stools, a shrinking and trimming of the gut, and an actual reversal of the aging process.

shockingly, am looking younger.

wild greens and fruits are found everywhere!

dandelion, plantain, clover, lamb's quarters, and a spectrum of wild greens abound.

during any food shortage, any wild edible greens can give you nutrients to survive.

it's even perhaps possible to live on blades of grass. haven't actually tried this yet... soon. :)

cooking is hardly necessary, even destructive to the value of the food.

as mentioned in an earlier food post, this was one of my last 'uncharted dietary territories'.

a tremendous success!

in a nutshell, this is basically a primate diet, much like our closest animal relative.

join me and the rest of the animal kingdom!

how is it that horses, cows, bulls, deer, moose, and a number of other large mammals get so healthy on diet of mostly raw greens?

think about it.

we're not all that different....

yes friends, we did indeed evolve from animals.

adam and eve ate green plants. :)

be free.

adventure!

:: r e p l y _

2007.09.11 :: tuesday :: 3:47pm :: thrive :: create :: evolve

we are technology . . .

(mp3 | ogg)))  vavmind 003

featured music ::

now is the only time.

breathe.

look.

:: r e p l y _

2007.09:02 :: sunday :: 12:43pm :: love :: live :: share

for the last week or so, my wife and eye have been eating completely raw foods, totally vegan.

for me, this has been one of my last 'uncharted territories' of dietary modification.

must say that the results so far have been totally amazing.

after a couple days of uncomfortable detox, including mild headaches, restlessness during sleep, and slight skin breakouts, my energy has just multiplied tenfold!

waking up feeling absolutely great these days, feeling an abundance of energy, even right after eating.

my flexibility is increasing, my memory retention is advancing, my sex drive is 'on the rise' (lol), my meditations are deeper, and my relationship with everyone is improving...

we're really on to something here and planning on continuing with this practice. the initial results are stunning. will be interesting to see how things go over the long run.

through this process, we've begun connecting with lots of people who are committed to this practice. their health, vitality, and commitment is speaking volumes...

as we collect more experience, we will share all of our discoveries with everyone.

eat lots of raw greens, either blended with fruit as a 'green smoothie' or chopped up into a olive oil / celtic sea salt / raw vegetable mix. we've been using primarily kale and collards. any leafy greens will do the trick!

eat avocados!

salads!

get some LIFE into your diet.

it will clean you out . . .

then it will bring YOU to life.

:: r e p l y _

2007.08.11 :: saturday :: 4:55am :: sharpen :: activate :: lead

life can be a struggle . . .

(mp3 | ogg)))  vavmind 002

featured music ::

contact people you haven't spoken with for a long time.

speak bold truths.

have the courage to be totally real.

:: r e p l y _

2007.07.13 :: friday :: 7:11pm :: clean :: reveal :: do

we are light.

(mp3 | ogg)))  vavmind 001

featured music ::

do it right then, or as soon as possible.

that way, once it's done, you won't have to think about it any longer.

saves brain cycles and space.

:: r e p l y _

2007.07.06 :: friday :: 7:50pm :: clear :: focus :: transmit

just recorded my first vavmind audio journal entry ::

(mp3 | ogg)))  vavmind 000

featured music ::

project divinity ~ divinity

enjoy.

would love to hear what you think.

all you need is to do is switch the mistaken part with the correct part like this ::

bash$ ^mistake^correction

these carets (^) tell the shell to use the previous command and replace the first entry with the second.

very cool, quick, and simple.

this ability is known as 'history substitution'.

:: r e p l y _

2007.07.04 :: wednesday :: 7:46pm :: shelter :: rest :: tune in

this week, we have been experiencing heavy chemtrail spraying here in arizona.

it's maddening. something must be done about it. been staying inside as much as possible.

in better news, eye finally (fully) fixed my laptop last night!

tore it completely apart and found a small metal piece lodged into the secondary cooling fan.

the jammed fan was causing my whole system to slow down.

very happy to have everything finally working again.

expect more media soon.

on a separate surface, one by one, arrange all of the removed pieces in relation to each other, mimicking their original position.

sometimes it takes a couple of these maps (one for each side).

the most challenging aspect of repairing something complicated is putting it back together after disassembly.

a map makes this easy.

:: r e p l y _

2007.07.02 :: monday :: 7:35pm :: maintain :: move :: develop

my laptop is still acting up. could really use a new one. been hard to keep going with everything online.

can't afford a new one right now, so we must make do with what we have.

sorry if any emails have been missed.

emma and eye have setup space for recording, which we're planning to attempt over the next two weeks.

after that, we're going to visit my family on the east coast. will be great to see everyone again.

my grandparents have been in and out of the hospital lately, so we want to spend some time with them.

wrote a new song the other day, called 'grateful'. here are the lyrics ::

call me grateful
for all of life
and today
eye see this light

minds so hateful
scream and cry
that's no way
to feel alive

can you listen
to the thankful part inside
there must be something
that gives meaning to your life

~

actually, it's a song to myself.

it can only be lived.

:: c a l l m e g r a t e f u l_

2007.06.29 :: friday :: 8:59pm :: integrate :: perform :: evolve

lots has happened since my last entry.

first of all, emma and eye have been getting along quite well, fully settling back into our marriage. feels good to have our relationship back, in a more mature form.

early tomorrow we will be singing an acoustic set together at the local farmers market.

was offline for a long time recently!

my laptop was giving having lots of difficulty, running extremely slow.

after lots of troubleshooting, discovered that a clogged heatsink, combined with intense desert heat, caused the bios to become corrupted. my cpu frequency was thrown off along with the cooling controls.

things are starting to work better after running a bootable cd flash bios reinstall, along with an badly needed internal cleaning.

on another note, eye was recently hired by a new local japanese restaurant as a server / cook!

been enjoying working there.

yes, life is rolling right along.

still looking forward to more creative recording time...

hopefully soon.

one measure of a town is the quality of its library.

don't neglect yours!

:: h a i l _

2007.06.11 :: monday :: 9:30pm :: intensify :: stand up :: speak out

haven't posted in this journal for ages!

been getting along fairly well, mostly busy sorting out an ongoing series of relationship dramas (sigh). things are calming down now . . .

feeling able to focus on some other creative things again.

the third tryad album is coming together well. will take a bunch more work until it's complete, yet the overall concept is emerging into view. enjoying the vision highly.

this will be an intense album (far more than the last ones), filled with sound effects, lots of electronic noises, and sarcastic role playing. if you've been paying attention to the current demos, you've been getting a taste. looks like eye will be responsible for producing this one.

just downloaded and burned a copy of the latest ubuntu gnu/linux version. about to overhaul my machine. really needs it.

our new spoken-word audio show will be launching soon.

emma is on a trip, so eye might start without her.

we shall see...

these are known as 'chemtrails' and are part of huge undercover government operations to alter our atmosphere.

information on this issue can be difficult to find.

just got a documentary recently titled aerosol crimes detailing the facts in depth. it's free to be shared and copied, so if you want a copy, donate for shipping and eye will send you one.

drink filtered / distilled water, eat organic foods, seaweed, raw garlic, and other detoxifying agents.

friends, there's a war on for our health.

:: s t a n d u p _

2007.05.23 :: wednesday :: 12:32am :: rest :: prepare :: absorb

caretaking a house lately.

watched cable tv tonight for the very first time in ages.

what a bunch of strange, superficial, violent, pseudo-sexual stuff.

c-span is the only thing eye could really handle watching for long, other than a cool documentary called forest for the trees.

as far as media goes, this net is my absolute savior.

way more choice. way more honest.

at least it's two-way.

check out some of the following ::

common dreams :: democracy now :: newsreal :: reddit :: therawstory :: guerrillanews :: slashdot :: free speech radio :: digg :: black listed news :: antiwar :: buzzflash :: eurekalert

* w a r n i n g *

judging from experience, too much of this stuff can really hurt the brain.

it's better to make our own news anyway . . .

:: w r i t e m e _

2007.05.20 :: sunday :: 11:29am :: heal :: maintain :: hang on

what an intense week.

once settled here, eye learned that emma was still in the middle of another relationship.

this was unknown to me and this week was a crazy emotional rollercoaster of the three of us working to sort things out.

the situation seems to have finally resolved, with emma and eye planning on selling the van and using the money to move together to hawaii.

feeling a little sad and shaken by it all, yet it looks like everything is going to work out in the long run.

really been quite a stretch of relationship chaos, which eye thought was coming to and end with my arrival here.

yet another indication of the dangers of expectations, as well as a clear sign of cultural transformations happening all around.

have a number of times lately wanted to give up and become a simple monk.

in other news, a new tryad store has spawned that handles international shipping. been getting a number of requests for this.

planning on recording again soon.

signed cds will be shipping this week.

blessings.

particularly recommended are the speeches by jello biafra and richard stallman.

valuable listening.

:: c o n f i d e _

2007.05.10 :: thursday :: 2:03pm :: arrive :: connect :: e n j o y

made it to arizona!

yosemite was astounding . . .

crossing the mojave desert was quite difficult. have never been through such a vast, vacant, burning hot place before. happy there was a large bottle of water with me.

emma and eye are really enjoying being back together now.

really glad that we made this decision.

we have both learned and grown so much over our time apart.

feeling so much appreciation for everything, this life, and my wife.

thank you all.

love everyone so much.

c h a n g e !

there are plenty of ways to shake things up, including the following ::

move, make new friends, reconnect with old friends, get a haircut, dress differently, cook unusual foods, dance, go on walks, exercise, start new hobbies, change habits, kill a television, speak your truth, read books, spend time with children, invent something, learn, travel, write letters, volunteer for a cause, get involved with your local community, start a business, listen to new music, meditate, plant a garden and watch it grow, get a new pet, keep a journal . . . :)

:: h e l l o !

2007.05.06 :: sunday :: 12:21pm :: launch :: let go :: f l y

great thanks to professor lawrence lessig, steven booth, hanani, and asclepius daughter for their most generous donations!

we are so touched, relieved, and extremely thankful . . .

you have enabled us to unite, create, and continue sharing with this world.

signed cds will be sent to you very soon.

leaving today for arizona.

gratitude, gratitude, gratitude . . .

^ _ ^

check out this low energy lifestyle slideshow.

cuba was struck with an imposed 'peak oil' in the 1990s and survived quite well.

serves as an impressive example for us all.

permaculture can solve practically all global problems.

( t r a n s m i t )))

2007.05.04 :: friday :: 2:13pm :: wait :: endure :: appeal

emma and eye want to reunite soon to develop the third tryad album!

we need your help to make this happen...

anyone who donates $20 or more will receive a signed copy of our 'listen' cd!

thank you all so much for your ongoing support.

we love you dearly.

dreams tell us much about ourselves.

if everyone were to slow down and relax more, this world would be a better place for it.

simple things matter most.

:: c o m m u n i c a t e _

2007.04.28 :: saturday :: 9:25pm :: perfect :: complete :: breathe

eye want

this world to be a peaceful place

plants, humans, and animals to bloom.

eye want

there to be lots of love between us

for everyone to be cared for.

eye want

food growing everywhere

poetry being read to the moon and stars.

eye want

conversations around fires

naked bathing in sunlit oceans.

eye want

for each of us to love ourselves

just as we are.

use and replace as you go.

distillation is one of the best forms of water purification.

this can also be done via the sun or by boiling.

the next weblife.org video episode will show everyone how to do this.

anyone want to donate or buy a rocket stove to help make a new video happen?

needing a bit more trip money to reunite my wife.

she handles the cameras. :)

:: t e l l m e ::

2007.04.25 :: wednesday :: 8:19pm :: vanish :: focus :: engage

our female guinea pig just gave birth to two beautiful healthy babies!

just read how guinea pigs are raised and eaten, in various places around the world, and sometimes by permaculture teachers.

interesting.

been making tons of rocket stoves.

probably have around 30 of them in stock now.

tryad.org just got an interface-lift.

you like? :)

fact is, rent sucks.

why does shelter cost us all so much?

natives never have this problem.

:: b e a m _

2007.04.20 :: friday :: 7:02pm :: recreate :: investigate :: question

beautiful day here today.

nice walk in the woods.

just delivered two rocket stoves.

van is running again. :)

emma and eye will be reunited soon.

much love to us all.

~

breaking the silence :: the third stage :: loose change :: road to guantanamo ::
the pharmacratic inquisition

great & powerful stuff.

:: t u n e i n _

2007.04.18 :: wednesday :: 1:30am :: m a r r i a g e

eye married a couple today (yesterday)!

like, was a 'minister' (moon star).

was a pagan wedding.

sooooOOOOOO beautiful.

played with children
among rocks
trees
and a beautiful
flowing river

eye sang

to the trees

and played guitar

for every

o n e

especially

the

s u n

.

peace and healing

to you virginia

~

2007.04.18 :: tuesday :: 11:59pm :: impeach :: impeach :: impeach

god damn this holy war
fucking oil we're fighting for

will jesus save your souls
killers for world control

hypocrites and terror talk
9 1 1 was an inside job

just some sick master plan
dying in blood stained sand

how dare you threaten us
you think that you're so tough

all will be revealed today

you have real hell to pay

lies and crimes beyond belief

faithful flock is losing sheep

behive live with swarming bees

better pray get on your knees

dictators get a fucking clue

we are all through with you

will we ever comprehend
such greed
inside these men

darkness only turns to light

death only turns to life

war only turns to peace

impeach

impeach

2007.04.13 :: friday :: 11:07am :: manifest :: do :: awaken

woke up early, went on a walk in the woods, meditated next to flowing water, found a bunch more dried mugwort for firestarting, came home, and drank a large jar of local spring water mixed with fresh lemon juice.

haven't smoked cannabis for a while and am feeling much better as a result. enjoying more vivid and memorable dreams, a clearer mind, and waking up earlier. have more energy overall.

about to take a cold shower, do some naked naked sunbathing, and make a town trip to send out some packages via the post office.

special thanks to hanani from england and justin from canada for your generous support!

much love to you both.

rocket stoves and signed copies of the new tryad cd are on the way.

have decided to get back together with my wife. we have been talking a lot by phone lately.

both have been through a lot of changes since our separation and we've decided to give our relationship another try.

still need to fix my van to travel to her.

will be working on that.

sustainability is our greatest imperative, our critical global challenge.

we each need to connect deeply with our own mental clarity, clean air, pure water, and healthy food.

we must invite plants and animals into our lives.

bees are dying in vast amounts, probably due to genetically modified crops which contain pesticides in their pollen.

if all the bees die, we are soon to follow, as our food crops will not be able to reproduce.

the time for apathy and ignorance is over.

:: r e s p o n d _

2007.04.09 :: monday :: 4:57pm :: release :: exist :: be

anyone else want a signed copy of the new tryad cd?

donate $10 or more and you will be sent one.

those who donated previously will be getting their copy soon.

just arrived from the manufacturer...

much love to all!

enjoyable show. :)

newsreal is kicking!!

also, hackermedia.org is back online.

good stuff!

:: g e e k o u t ::

2007.04.07 :: saturday :: 11:39pm :: open :: imagine :: initiate

transported soil yesterday from the chicken coop into the garden, got a bunch of sawdust from the local sawmill for use in humanure composting, rode a bike into town and held my second 'love riot' (standing in peak downtown traffic with a large sign that says 'i love you').

got the usual friendly, positive, uplifting responses. :)

today was spent doing dishes, cleaning the house, taking care of guinea pigs, and recording this and this.

emma just invited me to spend time on her new homesteading spot in arizona.

there are horses, a garden, and wilderness there.

sounds appealing.

when food scraps are placed in their area, they will eat what they can, tearing up and burying the rest, creating a rich soil for gardening.

chicken poop is also one of the best garden fertilizers found on this planet.

:: r e l a t e ?

2007.04.05 :: tuesday :: 8:16pm :: heal :: embrace :: allow

went on a nice walk in the woods today after building some rocket stove parts.

ate some wild st john's wort and indian lettuce.

found a bunch more mugwort, including a ton of last years dry leaves for fire making.

also discovered a bunch of patches of local native sage.

a special treat!

time for some bundle making.

would love to send everyone some. :)

came home, and recorded this.

eyeloveyou.

eyeloveusall_

with a little sunlight and the proper tinder, you can light a fire quite easily.

sometimes there's just no need for sulfur or butane.

:: p o n d e r . . .

2007.04.03 :: tuesday :: 1:51pm :: wait :: simplify :: discover

last night eye recorded a new demo, watched the great global warming swindle, slept, woke up, used the bucket, went for a long walk and meditation in the woods, found a discrete spot to enjoy some naked sunbathing, did some situps and pushups, picked some indian lettuce for the guinea pigs, some dandelion leaves for me, ate these along with some baby manzanita berries and fresh pine shoots, one egg from the chickens in the backyard (yolk raw, whites fried in a cast iron skillet with local raw organic butter and sea salt), smoked some recently dried mugwort.

100% local food this morning (except for the sea salt)!

just got a generous donation from hanani!

thank you so much!

been really needing support...

you'll be getting a special 'vav package' from me soon.

just found out that eye will be going camping for a couple of days.

right on. :)

constantly.

:: i n q u i r e ~

2007.03.31 :: saturday :: 12:13am :: awake :: embrace :: attain.

today eye woke up at dawn, peed in a bucket, meditated with an eye pillow, fed the guinea pigs and chickens who provided three eggs, went on a long walk in the forest which ended up at the local sawmill where eye picked up some free cedar bark to be included as fire making tinder in rocket stove kits, cleaned a bunch of tin cans, ate some soaked and soft cooked amaranth with sesame seeds and maple syrup, did some pushups and situps, rode my bike to the natural food store and bought some groceries.

came home and recorded this.

this is the first song in a planned series of acoustic recordings.

my third solo album will simply be me singing with a guitar.

been looking forward to this.

might be moving to mexico sometime soon. :)

patience prevails.

quite often the slow turtle wins the race.

endure.

focused deliberate effort rewards.

:: n e w d a y .

2007.03.29 :: thursday :: 4:32pm :: empty :: relax :: continue

since the last post, my van was towed home in exchange for $20 and a rocket stove, chad left for his week long trip, our internet went down overnight, been cooking things like soaked lentils, brown rice, and corn tortillas, have masturbated twice, been shitting in a bucket, took care of a bunch of personal organization, smoked some grass, sang, sang, and sang, rode my bike to town, made some rocket stove deliveries, gave one away to a lovely cashier, bought some organic apples, raw cheese, garlic, two heads of lettuce, and one onion, lemon, pear, banana, and avocado.

just received another extremely generous donation from asclepius' daughter.

infinite gratitude and love to you my dear friend!

getting systems ready for more recording.

been enjoying my guitar so much lately.

just got invited to a party tomorrow night.

sweet. :)

love is the act of creation itself.

everything is born of love.

love is fundamental truth.

:: s i n g )))

2007.03.27 :: tuesday :: 5:58pm :: achieve :: organize :: overcome

just shipped out my first three rocket stoves!

after visiting the post office, was about to deliver more stoves to local outlets when my van broke down in the middle of traffic!

two very kind local police used their car to push it over to the side of the road.

enjoyed a nice walk home from downtown.

luckily my one friend owns a tow truck, while my other friend is a mechanic.

good to have friends.

communication is our life blood.

when we share our experiences, ideas, understandings with each other, we magnify our collective wealth in this world.

we are truly all one family.

:: p r o j e c t >

2007.03.26 :: monday :: 9:31am :: reflect :: question :: challenge

let me start by saying that eye am a big advocate of open relationships.

in many ways, eye feel that open relationships represent our truest nature.

we all have the capacity (and sometimes the total desire) to love more than one person at once. anyone with an open heart and mind knows this is true.

this being said, eye also feel that honesty is absolutely vital. if you have feelings towards, or are sharing intimacy with multiple people, everyone involved should know about it. if everyone agrees, it can actually work!

for some reason, eye keep attracting women who are practicing open relationships without keeping their partners informed.

this is deceptive, misleading, dangerous, and opens the potential for much chaos and suffering.

come on girls . . .

get real.

in an emergency self defence situation, this could be quite valuable, while being less harmful than unleashing wing chun kung fu on someone.

as a side note, there are some interesting cell phone stun guns on the market.

would suck to forget and try and answer one, eh? :)

:: z a p p !

2007.03.25 :: sunday :: 4:46pm :: c l a r i f y :: indicate :: r e v e a l

thanks mom for buying a rocket stove!

ok folks . . .

rather than going on about being lonely, it's time to be a bit more positive and proactive. :)

sound good?

e y e a m s i n g l e .

eye have been recently tested and cleared of any sexually transmitted disease.

would love to love someone.

in person.

simple and direct, huh? :)

:: h e l l o ?

2007.03.25 :: sunday :: 8:40am :: clarify :: intend :: create

my first online rocket stove sale just came in!

anyone else want one?

an inexpensive, vital alternative technology.

last night, after telling naomi that eye am feeling lonely, she replied ::

'loneliness is the human condition though..... embrace it.'

here's my response ::

'actually, loneliness is a very unusual condition for me.

most of my life has been spent in groups, or involved in close relationships.

even in meditation.

can't agree that loneliness is 'the human condition'.

it's a common feature of the 'modern condition', which coincides with every other destructive element of this society.

traditional cultures always contained frequent and constant human contact.

we all crave it. it's our nature.

being isolated like caged animals into separate compartments is something very new and unusual.

my life's work is to transform and reverse this trend.

won't last long anyway.

it's our 'modern society' that's disposable, not ancient intuition.

just a matter of time... :)'

thoughts anyone?

will be including some free with every rocket stove sold.

:: c o n n e c t _

2007.03.24 :: saturday :: 10:29am :: move :: love :: f l o w

last night was my first aikido class in a long time.

was so wonderful. missed it so much.

went out to an indian restaurant for tea afterward with a fun new friend.

enjoyed some great discussion about out of body experiences and lucid dreaming.

haven't talked about such things in a while, let alone had such things happen lately.

should get back on that track.

it's easy.

just eat less, eliminate intoxicants and increase meditation.

then, after a while, amazing things happen...

don't look to others for what you should do or who you should be,

see with your own eyes, hear with your own ears, and think with your own mind.

diversity is strength.

:: s h o w e r m e

2007.03.21 :: wednesday :: 4:17pm :: r i s e ! :: achieve :: f r e e d o m

woke up before dawn, meditated, built three rocket stoves, got the local elite mountaineering shop to sell them on their shelves (!), picked up naomi and hiked to the river where eye swam, sunbathed naked on the rocks, and practiced martial arts.

got home, smoked a bit of grass, and decided to write this journal posting. :)

tonight, planning on building more rocket stoves, taking care of some web design, cooking, and hanging out on youtube.

will certainly do some singing...

heck, will do some right now.

much love to all !!!

expanded blood vessels put pressure on surrounding tissues and cause pain, thus, a headache.

this is usually caused by expansive foods such as sugar, alcohol, pharmaceutical drugs, or via petrochemical exposure.

to balance, shrink the blood vessels by taking in contractive elements, such as sea salts, seaweeds (which also pull heavy metals from the body), or animal based foods such as eggs, fish, or meat.

all of these are known as having a yang effect.

my favorite headache remedy is umeboshi, a salty, pickled japanese plum.

best medicine eye know.

:: a u m

2007.03.20 :: tuesday :: 8:55pm :: sleep :: work :: breathe

after some late night, slightly kinky chatting with a woman in new york, eye enjoyed a lengthy masturbation in bed.

slept deeply, just like a baby, right up until the afternoon of this cloudy grey, rainy day.

woke up, ate some local free-range organic eggs, and jumped into a bunch of web design for a client.

been working online most of the day, enjoying various types of tea, smoking a bit of herb, and listening to a wide spectrum of music.

mistook recent space from naomi as something of significance.

just missing her.

f i n d

f i s h !

:: a f i s h y f i s h y f i s h !

2007.03.19 :: monday :: 6:58pm :: focus :: prepare :: clean

the first rocket stoves went on the shelf for sale today!

delivered my first invoice and was immediately handed a check. :)

our server fees are covered!

after a long nap, been preparing a large stock of tin cans for production.

nice working from home now, owning my own small business, choosing my own hours.

doing something simple and fun.

yet revolutionary.

as much as possible, practice letting things go.

when experiencing judgements and uncomfortable feelings, just let them sit.

relax, raise awareness, and wait it out.

everything always eventually changes.

:: r o c k i n '

2007.03.18 :: sunday :: 7:19pm :: s p r o u t ! :: g r o w ! :: e x p l o r e !

spring has sprung!

went on a long mountain bike ride through an old pine forest, smoked some cannabis, and took a wild edible hike.

ate tons of fresh baby indian lettuce (they were here first), chickweed, mugwort, cleavers, and blackberry leaves.

collected a bunch of last years dry mugwort for firestarting.

ended up taking a naked dip in the river, did some yoga on the rocks, and practiced my wing chun kung fu forms.

came home to my inboxes being filled with loving and kind messages from around this planet.

feeling so refreshed right now . . .

life is beauty.

~

get outside whenever you can.

stare deeply into the face of nature.

tiny worlds are everywhere to expore.

:: s p r u n g !

2007.03.17 :: saturday :: 9:26pm :: march :: sing :: float

brought my guitar downtown today, marched, and sang with around 400 people at today's peace rally.

tons of fun. :)

been feeling a bit lonely tonight.

my friends are all off doing other things.

time for bed.

sweet dreams everyone.

be careful about what the mainstream media says.

have known them to lie repeatedly.

people in power often lie to maintain their position.

good to be aware of this.

:: b e d t i m e . . .

2007.03.16 :: friday :: 6:42pm :: arise :: engage :: achieve

woke up before dawn this morning, meditated, then launched right into action.

washed my laundry and hung it out to dry. bought some food and gas. took a trip to the local recycling center and picked up a supply of tin cans for rocket stove making.

all of this was possible do to the kind donations that have recently come in.

will be ordering a batch of 'listen' cds soon, which will be signed and sent to all who are showing their support.

should be able to cover our server costs.

the shop that's going to carry the rocket stoves is paying me outright for them.

don't even have to wait for them to sell.

we have liftoff !

^ _ ^

for personal hygene, eye am a big fan of weleda products.

been using their toothpaste and deodorant for a long time now.

would certainly recommend them.

:: t h o u g h t s ?

2007.03.15 :: thursday :: 11:42pm :: relax :: enjoy :: deepen

just got an extremely generous donation from asclepius' daughter . . .

simply profound. :)

thank you so much !!!

today, to celebrate the creation of my new rocket stove business, eye treated naomi and myself to the movie 'children of men' on the big screen.

should be required viewing for all of western civilization.

after the film, we bought some fresh coconuts and ate them at home.

lit a palm wax candle, burned some sage, and enjoyed massaging eachother with jojoba oil mixed with lavender oil.

ended up making out passionately .

e y e a m i n l o v e

w i t h

e v e r y t h i n g .

honesty takes courage.

courage comes from understanding how temporary everything is.

someday, everything, everyone, eventually passes away.

b e f r e e !

:: a a a a a a h h h .

2007.03.14 :: wednesday :: 4:18pm :: r e j o i c e ! :: celebrate :: express gratitude

just sold my very first rocket stove!

two local outlets have agreed to sell rocket stoves on their shelves!

t o d a y i s a b e a u t i f u l d a y ! ! !

the moment eye brought one in the shop, a sweet woman bought it right on the spot, for thirty-five dollars, while it was being demonstrated to the manager.

have been asked by the shop to mass produce them!

my friends, we are bringing the power of native fire back into the lives of humanity.

using 100% recycled material.

petroleum free.

donations for music have begun pouring in from california, texas, and united kingdom !!!

thank you mounir, joel, and hannah !!! ^ _ ^

you will be receiving autographed copies of tryad's new cd.

m y f r i e n d s, it's time to celebrate !!!

going to use my dishwashing application for rocket stove fuel.

: ) : ) : )

yee haw !!! :)

eye love you !!!

e y e l o v e y o u a l l ! ! !

hooray vav! we celebrate you and feed you tomorrow night!

congrats on the rocket stove sale!

was happy to read that's starting to take off for you.

:: w o o h o o : )

2007.03.13 :: tuesday :: 10:16am :: struggle :: endure :: overcome

desperately trying to find ways to make money.

web design has stalled, rocket stoves have yet to sell, and donations for music have not been coming.

server demands are increasing due to growing popularity.

not sure how to maintain the costs.

submitting an application for a local dishwashing job.

yes, dear friends . . .

eye am officially a starving artist.

focus on what you want in life.

let everything else go.

If you need extra bandwidth/disk space, let me know.

:: g i v e

2007.03.10 :: saturday :: 11:39pm :: prepare :: journey :: relate

wow.

what an intense, amazing day . . .

woke up before dawn, meditated, walked in the woods, exercised, sun bathed, drove to san francisco with naomi, sang 'oh freedom' on stage to the entire free tibet rally, kissed naomi for the first time (!), repeatedly got lost on the return trip due to compelling conversation, brought naomi home, then, to top it all off, ran out of gas just a couple of miles from my house.

enjoyed a splendid walk home, singing, and smiling under beautiful stars.

wow.

what else can one say?

"i am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination.

imagination is more important than knowledge.

knowledge is limited.

imagination encircles the world."

~ albert einstein

:: d e b a t e

2007.03.09 :: friday :: 1:39pm :: awake :: connect :: wonder

just got home from a fun bicycle ride in the woods with a beautiful woman.

she's planning on taking a solo tour of africa this year.

highly inspiring.

old friends from los angeles are arriving tonight.

we're all planning to go to the free tibet rally in san francisco tomorrow.

going to bring my guitar and sing there.

want to join us?

freedom is vital.

so is honesty.

healthy relationships contain both.

:: r e a c t

2007.03.08 :: thursday :: 8:59am :: rise :: breathe :: create

we live in a funny society.

for a number of people, the most basic things are taboo.

three school girls were recently suspended for saying the word 'vagina'.

apparently for some, it's not proper to talk about bodies, sex, shit, food, money, death, or even existence.

yet, all of these topics include our most real, significant, and direct experiences.

are we divorced from ourselves?

liberate yourself.

liberate everyone.

:: w h i s p e r

2007.03.06 :: tuesday :: 7:44pm :: walk :: heal :: d r e a m

went on a really long walk in the forest today.

tonight, eye am staying home, smoking some grass, and singing ruby tuesday. :)

had a long nap.

been doing a bunch of web design for a client.

probably masturbate before bed.

been feeling . . .

hmmm ...

lately. ^_^

time is the most valuable thing.

because it's everything.

:: s q u e e k

2007.03.05 :: monday :: 11:00pm :: sleep :: rest :: contemplate

last night eye went to a club and danced my ass off with new friends.

a fun night!

kissed a boy for the first time in my life.

was nice . . .

my body is aching from all the freaky jerking around to synth music.

slept nearly all day. :)

love is love.

u n i v e r s a l .

:: s q u a w k

2007.03.03 :: saturday :: 6:13pm :: localize :: ride :: exercise

rode my free bicycle for the first time today, all the way to downtown grass valley and back.

a wonderful workout and ride . . . with no monthly fee!

at the natural food store, bought some apples, lemons, and kombucha as a treat.

at each stoplight, got to stretch out and enjoy the sun.

when we're in cars, we don't get that luxury.

been a long time since eye rode these streets on a bike.

not since early high school . . .

remember childhood.

stay young.

:: r i d e w i t h m e

2007.03.03 :: saturday :: 12:06pm :: love :: clean :: give

last night eye went out on a 'date' to starbucks.

any of you who know me well enough will likely find this amusing.

ordered one cup of hot water (free!), and placed in it one bag of kukicha tea.

after some hot beverages and gay banter with a sweet friend, we ran around town (literally), and had lots of fun.

ended up kissing and holding eachother under the stars . . .

b l i s s !

:)

draw some lines.

get clear about what you're here for.

become your wildest dreams . . .

:: s h a r e l o v e

2007.03.02 :: friday :: 12:18am :: work :: focus :: advance

been growing tired of myspace bashing.

yes, myspace is owned by our favorite minister of propaganda, rupert murdoch.

yes, it's interface is bunk, lag strong, errors frequent, ads intolerable, profiles distasteful, spam rampant, and the whole damn thing is in desperate need of so many basic features . . .

despite all this, there's something strong pulling so many of us in.

i know what it is.

it's eachother.

ok fine.

i'll admit it.

been feeling gratitude for m y s p a c e.

^_^

eat alkaline foods.

these days, it's really easy to become over-acidic.

maintain digestive balance.

:: s a y s o m e t h i n g

2007.02.28 :: wednesday :: 11:27am :: inspire :: love :: enact

help keep music and information free.

please donate . . .

take risks in life.

makes everything more interesting.

:: e x p r e s s

2007.02.27:: tuesday :: 9:23am :: consider :: connect :: find

during my hike in the woods this morning, was thinking about the nature of beauty.

yes, beautiful people, both female and male, become loved, famous, and successful.

yet, it's obvious that there is much more to beauty than appearance.

in fact, we all know that some of the 'ugliest' people physically can be extremely attractive.

indeed, beauty takes many forms.

our appearance to others is largly based upon attitudes, thoughts, and actions.

true, looks are something of value, but heart and mind goes b e y o n d.

this whole universe is something of beauty anyway.

all of us included.

my best friend just gave me a pair of danner boots.

these boots are extremely lightweight, rugged, and attractive.

what a gift. :)

:: r o c k n r o l l

2007.02.24:: saturday :: 5:10pm :: hold :: plant :: grow

whilst i was pissing in a bucket just now, it occurred to me that i am truly free.

free to choose my own path.

free to share love.

free to have wonderful adventures.

free to do millions of things, even totally W I L D things like ::

meditate in public, sing the word fuck, cook my own organic food, burn sage, inhale cannabis! O.o, flirt endlessly on youtube (block those ads!!), practice aikido, spend hours in the forest, brew kombucha, and last, but not least, watch pornography !! woooo ! :)

( and even masturbate to it too! )

what's more, i'm free to publicly admit all of this to all of you.

^_^

by the way folks, what does the word freedom mean???

:: s p e a k u p

we are . . .

what we are.

embrace what is.

2007.02.21:: wednesday :: 1:41pm :: return :: clarify :: initiate

just took a long solo trip down the oregon coast and through the redwoods.

astounding!

happy to be back in the land of my youth, the sierra nevada mountains.

today i'll be working on turning two broken bicycles into one working one.

thanks to barbara and freecycle for hooking me up with these, free of cost.

planning on recording a bunch more demos soon.

chad just served me up some wonderful homemade soup. :)

good to be back.

cherish your friends.

they are invaluable.

also, if you get the chance, check out the secret.

cool movie. :)

2007.02.12:: monday :: 10:33pm :: establish :: pioneer :: live

having a grand time here in eugene with barbara.

went to an awesome poetry slam, did some rocket stove cooking, got my first batch of kombucha brewing, got two free bicycles from freecycle, and began humanure composting.

we bought some local lettuce seeds today from down to earth.

excited to be making rapid progress towards sustainability.

discovering local farms to buy organic produce from.

someday, we may have our own.

invite life into your life.

raise plants and animals.

practice fermentation and composting.

take the power of nature into your hands.

2007.02.10:: saturday :: 1:14pm :: touch :: renew :: investigate

made it safely to oregon!

due to an expired registration tab, got pulled over by some police who were wondering why eye would carry around bottles of water in the van with me.

it's probably because clean water is our most valuable resource.

we couldn't live for long without it.

investigate your local food sources.

find out what farms are in your area.

once you do, establish a relationship with them.

eat as local as possible.

2007.02.05:: monday :: 1:26pm :: float :: simplify :: release

a number of van repairs are nearly finished.

one brief trip, then i will have the ability to sell it.

time to own bicycle again.

if you are interested in learning web design, music creation, free software, poetry, cooking, or discussing any other subject for that matter . . .

c o n t a c t m e .

e y e a m h e r e .

2007.01.30:: tuesday :: 5:58pm :: invite :: accept :: give

took my first 'renegade shit' today.

brought my u-dig-it shovel, found a discrete woodland location, dug myself a hole, shat into the hole, wiped myself with tissue, then buried it all.

to learn what we should be doing with our urine and shit, read the humanure handbook.

as soon as eye land a more permanent living situation, composting will begin.

quite simply, eye refuse to shit in water anymore.

water is too precious for that.

patience prevails.

plant a seed.

it will grow.

Hey... we have the same shit-digger!

:: a n s w e r

2007.01.28 :: sunday :: 11:34am :: purify :: meditate :: sing

spent this afternoon with tibetan monks again, performing a number of purification rituals.

powerful.

afterwards, my best friend and eye enjoyed an organic picnic in a pine forest.

then it was off to a small, focused diksha gathering where eye sang for everyone, meditated, and enjoyed profound conversation.

such a wonderful sunday . . .

release judgements and opinions.

see things the way they are.

just as they are.

:: b r o a d c a s t

2007.01.27 :: saturday :: 10:41am :: laugh :: play :: arise

last night i went to see a group of tibetan monks speak, chant, and sing.

so beautiful . . .

tibetan culture is seriously threatened and really needs our support.

please spread the word.

never give up hope.

there is always a chance to overcome.

what we think creates our reality.

when we believe something, we give it strength.

:: t a l k t o m e

2007.01.24 :: wednesday :: 6:33pm :: enjoy :: par-tay :: live it!

doing a bunch of commercial web design lately.

feeling fantastic! living quite well . . .

working on getting my van fixed up for a trip up to oregon.

singing regularly, walking in the woods, making new online friends, and enjoying good times with my old ones.

everything is so bright . . .

looking for a myspace alternative?

check out zaadz!

been formed with some awesome ideals and prinicples.

could become something great.

if you're interested in joining, let me know and i'll invite you in.

:: c o n n e c t

2007.01.19 :: friday :: 12:05pm :: recover :: continue :: achieve

last night i was sicker than i've been in a very long time.

was the first time that i've ever had to cancel a live performance due to illness.

had eaten a bunch of european cheese that didn't agree with me at all.

feeling perfectly fine today.

apparently, my mother thinks that viewing simple, artistic photographs of body parts, including female genitalia, constitutes visiting 'the dark side' of life, with the belief that open nudity promotes rape, and pedophilia.

the truth is, states and countries that are the most restricted from access to 'pornography', also have the highest rates of rape and sexual brutality.

our naked bodies are not the enemy.

suppression and disconnection from nature is.

whenever i don't feel well, my remedies include the following ::

sleep, meditation (especially focused on the stomach area), bathing, hot herbal tea, miso soup with seaweed, umeboshi, lavender oil (used externally), and burning sage.

nothing beats an organic home-cooked meal too.

:: c h a t

2007.01.18 :: thursday :: 2:14am :: communicate :: connect :: maintain

my first 'love riot' was a total success.

made hundreds of people smile, laugh, wave, and hug.

gotta do more of this!

currently in long-distance passion with a brilliant artist.

had an intense erotic dream last night that clarified my bisexuality.

life flows on just beautifully . . .

follow your dreams.

they reveal your nature.

:: r e p r e s e n t

2007.01.16 :: tuesday :: 2:33am :: shine :: imagine :: r o c k t h i s w o r l d

just had an incredible revelation !

there's simply never enough love in this world . . .

so, to do my part, tomorrow (today) i'm going to hold my very own 'love riot'.

going to paint up some signs saying 'I LOVE YOU' and stand downtown in peak traffic.

who knows what might happen ???

blessings to my wonderful momma and pig-monkey for your donations . . .

thanks to your generosity, this website will remain online, free for all.

feeling well fed. *_*

we are alive N O W .

this will end . . .

L I V E !

G I V E !

:: t r a n s m i t

2007.01.10 :: wednesday :: 8:02pm :: clarify :: reveal :: prepare

been so broke lately . . .

working on innovative ways of generating income, such as selling rocket stoves.

wanna buy one?

if anyone reading this can afford it, i could really use your donation right now.

help keep free music alive . . .

feed this musician!

people who have lots of money don't work.

rich people make money simply from the money they have.

the majority of us sell our time and work very hard for very little.

sound like a good system?

r e v o l t .

:: s h a r e

2007.01.09 :: tuesday :: 6:11pm :: exercise :: travel :: s i n g

what a warm, sunny day this was.

spent the whole afternoon riding a mountain bike on forest trails.

so much fun!

came home and sang with my acoustic guitar for a few hours.

my spirit for singing is returning.

been a long time . . .

do not underestimate the utility of bicycles.

they are a fantastic transportation option.

:: r i d e o n

2007.01.07 :: sunday :: 7:43pm :: relax :: forget :: p u r i f y

today has been the most relaxing day i've had in a long time.

took another candlelit rose petal / lavender bath, smoked a bunch of local herbs, and enjoyed some jojoba oil self-massage / masturbation. *_*

distilling my drinking / cooking water lately with a water wise 1600.

my short-term memory seems to be improving.

whenever you can . . .

take a day off.

:: p e a c e o u t

2007.01.06 :: saturday :: 2:06pm :: release :: reflect :: redirect

great thanks to all those open hearts who sent me messages of support.

a number of painful and hidden relationship issues have finally resolved.

dear friends, eye am s i n g l e now . . .

and damn happy about it.

stand up.

use your voice. broadcast !

break social rules.

our future depends upon it.

if you need it, i'll give you free w e b s p a c e.

:: y e l l f i r e !

2007.01.05 :: friday :: 12:25pm :: stare :: cry :: die

been feeling quite sad these past few days.

wanting to cry, but can't.

sometimes, our world, this society, seems so confusing, so cold . . .

wanting to retreat into music, into the forest, into myself.

nothing gives me much comfort right now.

not sure what is happening . . .

perhaps anyone reading this can relate.

sitting in patience . . .

waiting for peace of mind.

love you all.

hot baths are very emotionally soothing.

about to take one mixed with a few drops of lavender oil.

along with some lit palm or beeswax candles . . .

y e a h . . . .

actually just crawled out of a warm bath.

i feel for you.

metta

:: c r y

2007.01.03 :: wednesday :: 3:22pm :: organize :: engage :: i m a g i n e

soon . . .

i will be visiting paris!

can't wait to meet my fellow european musicians.

around the house, i like to wear a black pair of teva water shoes.

great to have at the river or beach.

also good to wear while practicing martial arts and yoga.

:: c o m m u n i c a t e

2007.01.02 :: tuesday :: 5:31pm :: healing :: s p a c e :: melting

this is a big world

containing billions of people

many fish

in this s e a .

if you love someone . . .

set them f r e e .

:: r e s p o n d

2006.12:29 :: friday :: 10:55pm :: love :: love :: love

i am in love . . .

don't run away.

transform this system.

now.

:: d r e a m

2006.12:26 :: tuesday :: 11:39am :: purify :: empty :: rest

yesterday, i hiked longer and further than i have in a very long time.

my legs have a pleasant ache in them.

always amazing what we're capable of adapting to.

in life, do what you really want.

what other people think is a far lesser concern.

if you aren't feeling happy, find out what will make you so.

then . . .

as long as it's not harmful . . .

go for it.

:: r e s p o n d

2006.12:22 :: friday :: 1:27pm :: clarify :: retain :: initiate

trees

breathing steam

in after-rain sun

i have never been completely vegan.

i find it healthy to eat a moderate amount of animal based food.

organic is always of the utmost importance.

check out the weston price recommendations.

:: s p e a k

2006.12:12 :: tuesday :: 12:25pm :: achieve :: play :: inspire

dennis kucinich is running for president again!

h o o r a y !!!

G O   D E N N I S !!!

dennis is a close and dear friend.

cooked him dinner. *_*

2006.12:09 :: saturday :: 9:55pm :: celebrate :: accept :: cry

after a long series of challenges, t r y ^ d is bouncing back, stronger than ever.

this is a beautiful moment.

r e b i r t h !

i love you.

you are my friend.

if you ever need anything, just a s k .

2006.12:07 :: thursday :: 12:49pm :: clean :: envision :: motivate

they say that you discover who your real friends are during a time of crisis.

very true.

for daily cleaning, i have discovered that i do not need to use soap at all on my body.

i have not used shampoo for over a decade.

water works just fine for general washing.

the only thing i use regularly is jojoba oil.

i anoint my face, hair, and joints with it.

:: r e p l y

2006.12:06 :: wednesday :: 2:39pm :: relax :: heal :: breathe

cooking warm and wonderful food today.

ema is sleeping peacefully in the next room.

we're both recovering very well.

practicing some guitar fingerpicking, smoking some herb to relax.

my third solo album is going to be entirely acoustic.

whenever i'm out and about, i always carry a bottle of water with me.

my favorite container to carry is a klean kanteen.

it's stainless steel, so it doesn't leach chemicals like plastic, and it doesn't break like glass either.

all around, a rugged, functional container.

the accessories are also great.

:: r e p l y

2006.12:05 :: tuesday :: 8:55pm :: rage :: overcome :: revolutionize

ema came close to death today from a sudden and massive dental infection that was spreading throughout her head.

i kicked over a huge display of pills in an isle at a corporate drug store when an inexperienced clerk repeatedly refused to give me her perscription.

everyone was so terrified.

i simply stormed out the door.

happy to report that after two hospital visits and eventual success with securing medicine, ema is alive and recovering.

my friends, the united states has major problems with its 'health care' system.

it is up to us to fix them.

no more fucking bullshit.

write your own damn journal.

:: g o d h e l p u s

2006.11:30 :: thursday :: 1:13am :: deliver :: accept :: encounter

anyone reading this journal might appreciate the following ::

( mp3 package of 'listen', the new t r y ^ d album [140mb | .zip] )))

soon we'll have a slightly updated version of 'listen' available via torrent, encoded as vorbis, and up on jamendo.

please enjoy this gift.

warmest wishes!

congrats on a long awaited release!

metta love to all!

:: r e p l y

2006.11:20 :: monday :: 10:28pm :: live :: thrive :: t r a n c e - f o r m

we harvested around three baskets full of wild cranberries today.

i now understand why 'cranberry sauce' is a mainstay of thanksgiving dinner.

been eating more wild food than ever.

immediate. local. fresh. native.

w a y t o g o.

you never know when you might need to loudly command someone's attention, near or far.

the best whistles are the ones without cork balls inside, the kind used in sports. these do not break by being overblown.

i currently have a black fox 40 classic hooked to my keychain.

of course, it's always helpful to be able to whistle with ones own mouth.

another highly recommended practice. *_*

b a d d a b i n g .

My mother would always tell me to carry a whistle...

Hope you are doing well my friend.

:: r e p l y

2006.11:11 :: saturday :: 2:21pm :: establish :: navigate :: enjoy

events have been extremely wild since the last post.

multiple technological breakdowns & repairs :: trybal reconnections :: open fires :: increasing autonomy :: growing sustainability :: deepening friendships :: rocket stove cooking :: off-grid living :: constant flux

been a long fall down the rabbit hole, and overall, it's been a journey both great and fun.

seems like we may be finally achieving what we have been working towards.

check out hackermedia.org !

it contains a continuously updated list of podcasts and videos for those of geeky nature.

highly recommended.

in addition, be sure to browse the pages of tracker trail.

put these two together, and you'll end up with a glimpse of my developing lifestyle.

:: r e p l y

2006.10:21 :: saturday :: 9:06pm :: fly :: shine :: rage

it's often said that 'life is funny'.

perplexing
interesting
unusual
odd

i say, whatever it is
it's what we are.

ema says ::
and that's our choice
whatever reality we choose to dream.

c h a n g e

alternatives always appear.

ready or not.

:: r e p l y

2006.10:16 :: monday :: 5:12pm :: confide :: rebirth :: reconcile

hero

insignificant ones
trust in me
tiny humans
you better believe

i am the hero
i'm coming to save you all
no one can stop me
no no no
you are all so small

stomping heads
saves the day
v i o l e n c e
is my only way

i am the hero
i'm coming to save you all
no one can stop me
no no no
you are all so small

called a beanie, or 'tuque' (pronouced 'took', like 'spook') up in canada, these hats help keep your whole body warm, as most body heat exits through the head.

i wear an inexpensive black military version known as a watch cap. they can be found at virtually any army / navy surplus shop.

it's good to remember that wool keeps its warmth, even when wet.

:: r e p l y

2006.10:11 :: wednesday :: 3:45pm :: return :: report :: endure

i'd rather rest through world war one
though i know that fighting must be fun
just wake me up when everything's done
i'd rather rest through world war one

i'd rather snooze through world war two
though there really must be so much to do
just wake me up when everything's through
i'd rather snooze through world war two

i'd rather sleep through world war three
winning and losing doesn't matter much to me
until it's all over i will live in the trees
i'd rather sleep through world war three

i'd rather snore through world war four . . .

i currently own a petzl tactikka plus, which has a red lighting option.

apparently, using red light at night doesn't disturb night vision as much as using white.

i use both options in various situations.

i also love turning it off for an excellent view of the moon and stars.

:: r e p l y

2006.10:01 :: sunday :: 4:37pm :: open :: remain :: sustain

just about able to start recording again.

l o o k o u t !

it's an aquired taste i've grown to love.

a most excellent soda / beer alternative enjoyed all throughout human history.

apparently really good for you too.

:: r e p l y

2006.09:28 :: thursday :: 10:57pm :: realize :: create :: love

i love you.

the reader.

y o u .

thank you for being here.

an absolutely wonderful thing to do.

:: r e p l y

2006.09:23 :: saturday :: 9:09pm :: sleep :: dream :: heal

what is music?

it's a kind of communication.

one that we all deeply listen to.

let's make more.

discovered tonight that the gtkwifi program i had installed was causing all the trouble. just uninstalled it.

writing the developer now and seeing if there's anyway we can help overcome this bug.

nice to be flying with portable high speed networking again!

Check out wifi-radar. It's in the Ubuntu repos.

:: r e p l y

2006.09:22 :: friday :: 1:27pm :: breathe

it can be difficult to be creative.

of the hundreds of people who daily listen, watch, and read our online activities, few communicate with us.

even fewer create any kind of media themselves.

we know it's easier to just take in whatever is available, rather than putting forth effort to create something new.

yet, when we merely consume, we have no voice of our own.

must say it's the best belt i've ever owned.

in a pinch, i could even use it as part of a rappelling harness.

:: r e p l y

2006.09:20 :: wednesday :: 1:04am :: embrace :: adapt :: transmit

just got permission from aprovecho to copy and share capturing heat.

still working on the html.

hard copies can be cheaply bought.

:: add a comment

2006.09:17 :: sunday :: 2:22:02pm :: a a h

whenever we sit

breathe

relax

we are enacting greatness

:: add a comment

2006.09:13 :: wednesday :: 10:29pm :: gather :: sing :: transform

a message to all citizens of the united states, from the middle east ::

"we do not hate america. we love the american people. we do not like what your government does. please tell the american people that we are not terrorists. we do not hate israel. we want to be safe in our village. we want to be left alone. we want peace."

as for cameras, we're using cheap mini-dv video cameras (i own a buggy one with a dead battery, but i also often just borrow them from friends. they seem to be everywhere.)

for encoding, i downloaded, installed,  and used the trial version of divx. 

not sure if i'll use it again.

much to learn.

for ubuntu, i've just installed kino and a demo version of main actor.

for creating the show,  i'm going to try out using my system next.

:: add a comment

2006.09:06 :: wednesday :: 2:15am :: release :: relocate :: redefine

feels good to be mobile once again.

each one of us is a tiny drop in the sea of humanity.

might as well be free.

if you are interested in setting up a content management system based website, i highly recommend joomla as a strong option.

currently hacking away at it lately for one of my web clients.

joomla is a very well built open source system.

2006.08:30 :: wednesday :: 10:15pm :: transform :: expose :: purify

honesty is of the utmost importance.

telling the truth often requires bravery and courage.

hear me roar.

when you can afford it, order yourself some copies of the capturing heat series.

so far, they haven't let me put them online for free.

we all need to eventually become petroleum independent.

changing the way we cook is a good start.

2006.08:28 :: monday :: 10:30pm :: focus :: work :: maintain

just about ready to launch.

all systems are nearly backed up.

all resources are organized and compiled.

time for a countdown.

the main and critical responsibility we have is to care for ourselves.

we must take care of ourselves before we are able to assist anyone else.

in fact, both actions are entirely connected.

2006.08:24 :: thursday :: 6:49pm :: activate :: achieve :: advance

goals often take a long time to achieve.

patience and endurance are excellent virtues.

incredible things are possible if we have the will and devotion to hold steady to our aims.

keep at it.

inspiring activity is happening in the pure-core.

do you live in an area with a high concentration of air pollution?

i have just discovered that i am. even though i live on a beautiful forested mountain, the wind carries smog from nearby cities right over to me.

for the continental united states, check the current air quailty of your location at airnow.gov.

otherwise, take a look at some global air pollution maps.

time for me to move.

2006.08.20 :: sunday :: 10:08pm :: relax :: breathe :: let go

been quite a long time since i've posted.

we've just finished up recording two videos for the upcoming release of the new t r y ^ d album. can't wait to see the results. the videos will be made available online once they are finished.

things are shifting for us yet again and soon we'll be moving further north.

i've decided to perfect the art of remaining mobile. what is the point of spending all of your life's effort simply to pay rent? if you are poor, i say, do as i do. invest in mobile living and you'll be spending money towards what you directly own, not paying for time in space.

the more i look at it, i see our current money system as yet another form of slavery. people who have money control the actions of those who don't.

i hope someday this situation will change, or at least become more balanced.

not just for me, but for all.

if you live in an area with some exposure to sun, give solar cooking a try!

i recently bought some solar cooking supplies and have had good success making delicious brown rice.

if you can't afford to buy a pre-made solar cooking kit, you can always make your own. there are many different variations.

if you can, use the sun and cook for free!

2006.07.30 :: sunday :: 8:32pm :: settle :: cleanse :: organize

just got back from a trip to san francisco.

i've determined that i would never want to live in a city ever again.

the entire operation of a city feels so overly busy, complex, and draining.

on the streets, it is so sad to see the countless homeless, the addicted, and the insane.

my commitment to remain mobile and close to the wilderness has been renewed.

i've been making sauerkraut lately. it's easy!

shred some cabbage, put it in a large bowl, and sprinkle a bunch of celtic sea salt all over it. with your hands, mix and roughly crush the salt into the cabbage until it becomes very watery. place the whole mess into a crock, jar, or bowl. push the cabbage down until it's covered with water and place something heavy on top to keep it down, such as a plate with a clean rock on it, or a pitcher filled with water. let it sit at room temperature for around 3 days.

once it's finished, it's best to place it in a sealed jar and store it in a cool dark place. fridges or cool cupboards are fine.

home-made sauerkraut is filled with lactobacillus, an extremely healthy bacterium which boosts immune systems and promotes digestion.

2006.07.25 :: tuesday :: 9:57am :: inspire :: awaken :: love

happy birthday to me!

e y e a m 3 3 !

this world is an empty book, a blank page, a waiting prompt _

what a gift it is to be creators, free to choose which paths we take.

may we all choose to follow our deepest wisdom, our greatest joy, our highest calling.

may all beings be happy and strong.

all of life operates from the inside out. there is no world seperate from us.

we create this world, this reality. if we change our mind, we change this world.

we are power.

2006.07.21 :: friday :: 1:00pm :: reveal :: reconnect :: manifest

a beautiful and dear friend from england is visiting now.

life is moving right along.

the second t r y ^ d album is now complete! should be on sale very soon.

just ordered 33 copies of our new cd as a 33rd birthday gift to myself.

my birthday is on july 25th.

of course, i'll be giving them away. it is a gift to give.

i'll send a free signed copy to the first 11 people who email me with the following words ::

'listen, listen, listen vav! happy 33rd birthday!'

you never know when you might need some peace and quiet. reading in silence is always much more effective. you also never know when you might be exposed to random, loud, ear damaging noise.

take care of your ears! don't listen to music too loud. please! :)

2006.07.20 :: thursday :: 11:30am :: reflect :: contemplate :: adjust

i have just discovered that the creek that i have been bathing in daily is polluted with cyanide, aluminum, and lead from local gold mining operations.

for me, this news is devastating. i am left wondering how some people can be so selfish and careless. i have been experiencing some headaches and memory loss lately. i'm just glad i found out about this now.

immediately, to counteract any toxic effects, i'm going to begin eating lots of seaweed and miso soup. seaweed is one of the greatest detoxifying foods known.

for the time being, i'm cutting back on my animal food intake and sunbathing. i'm also buying a waterwise 1600 water distiller.

soon, i will only consume distilled water.

what a world.

are we all going to end up living in filtered bubbles?

if people poison our air, water, and food, how will we survive?

2006.07.14 :: friday :: 10:08pm :: continue :: hold on :: clarify

sometimes i feel there is nothing more valuable than gratitude.

we really don't exist long in this form.

if we look, there is always something to be grateful for.

remaining aware of our blessings, we are able to live an honest and joyful life.

give jedit a try!

jedit is open source software and available for most any operating system. after jumping through some hoops, i've been able to install it in my ubuntu laptop. i plan on doing all of my web design work from it now (including this journal). great program!

2006.07.12 :: wednesday :: 2:19pm :: heal :: work :: advance

just starting to settle into our new home.

feeling ready to begin developing all of our projects, local and beyond.

men are on the roof right now, installing our new solar electricity system.

the second t r y ^ d album is practically finished and is simply wonderful.

what can i say?

i am immensely grateful.

2006.07.10 :: monday :: 11:21pm :: transcend :: harmonize :: balance

what a stunning whirlwind the last couple of days have been.

nearly divorced my wife, lost my home, and moved to los angeles.

happy to report that we've survived and grown substantially closer from the experience.

indeed my dear friends and loved ones, this is life.

a series of challenges to grow from.

doing this makes them extremely more digestable by neutralizing enzyme inhibitors, tannins, and phytic acid.

it's also much better to use fresh, whole nuts and seeds. most seeds and nuts available in butters and in granola are slightly rancid.

2006.07.08 :: saturday :: 6:19pm :: intention :: pulse :: realize

last night i got to watch a young friend perform in fiddler on the roof.

was a wonderful play and the house was totally packed.

today we've had a number of friends over, with their lovely babies.

after an excellent dinner, we all swam in the creek and painted ourselves up with natural rock pigment paints.

the sun is going down now, upon a very splendid day.

2006.07.06 :: thursday :: 9:18pm :: resonate :: channel :: inspire

decided lately to experiment with a bit more animal and vegetable based foods in my diet and less carbohydrates.

been experiencing a mild candida overgrowth, probably due to the excessive grains i consume, along with my tendency to be internally acidic.

probably the best thing for me to do is amp up my vegetable intake. doing this has saved my life in the past.

still actively moving into our new home. very happy to be here.

2006.07.05 :: wednesday :: 8:13pm :: art :: beauty :: balance

apologies for not keeping my journal updated lately. been occupied with moving into our new environment.

starting to wake up everyday and head right down to the creek, where i meditate, bathe in cold water, and then lay in the sun.

there's a multitude of wild plants on this property. excellent resources abound.

feeling inspired to settle here.

for the drill, i've been using seasoned mock orange and dead stalks of mullein. for the hearth, i've been using dried branches of cedar. for the tinder bundle, nothing beats old dry mugwort hanging around from the previous year. i can't go hiking anymore without compulsively collecting the stuff.

2006.06.28 :: wednesday :: 1:45am :: release :: dissolve :: liberation

the youtube is getting more interesting and active. very nice.

today we made plans for the placement of two yurts, one tipi, and one geodesic dome home.

been making more sage bundles.

life is manifesting beautifully.

2006.06.26 :: monday :: 8:49pm :: dream :: create :: innovate

just had the most wonderful weekend!

one of my best friends is visiting for a number of days.

went to a huge outdoor potluck and chatted around a fire with a brilliant young engineer involved with twenty others who are designing a personal flying vehicle known as a gyrocopter. the stars were vast and beautiful. the conversation was facinating. apparently, flying cars are going to be available soon. local fire and police departments will be the first to get them.

ended up singing with a group of spirited musicians. the place was filled with radio djs.

due to a friendly connection, t r y ^ d is about to be featured on the largest public radio station in this region, one that covers much of northern california, including the bay area. very exciting!

been very hot lately. rivers are such a blessing.

2006.06.23 :: friday :: 8:13pm :: question :: intelligence :: fearlessness

if we are patient, diligent, and open to change, our wildest dreams are possible.

we are never stuck. bottom line is, someday, we are all going to die.

we might as well live according to our highest ideals.

right here and now, after years of work and searching, my dreams are coming true.

these are yin/yang, acid/alkaline, and digestive microbial balance.

by making dietary adjustments with these understandings, i've been able to cure myself repeatedly of any ill conditions, some of which were declared incurable by 'modern' western doctors. in a nutshell, don't trust 'em. look deeply at your own lifestyle.

2006.06.22 :: thursday :: 5:13pm :: create :: vision :: mind

beginning to notice a number of people taking on a healthier lifestyle lately.

just heard from s1xpounder, who has asked me for some recipes. due to this request, i've been inspired to keep a more detailed record of what i eat, beyond breakfast.

i've got over a decade of experience with natural foods cooking.

really wonderful to hear that there's more interest in it.

my favorite macrobiotic resource is aveline kushi's cookbook.

a good online recipe source is the pure core.

chew well! *_*